this is how it ends

from WEAKNESS by Eris DeJarnett

/

  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $1 USD  or more

     

  • Buy the Full Digital Album

about

At the beginning of August, WEAKNESS was sitting at a solid five tracks, and while I was really happy with the little stories I told throughout, I also felt like there was less of me in them than I wanted. I'm a very partner-oriented person, almost to a fault, and if I'm not careful, I give up a lot of myself in relationships to make sure the person I love is happy.

So it became urgently important—vital—to start and end this little baby album, this journey through things I kept out of my music for too long, with little bite-size pieces that honor myself. Yes, this is a collection of love songs, but the stories are things I lived with all these different people I loved. The common thread is me, and I can't let myself leave that out of a project like this.

As a sometimes-female, mostly-fem person, I've spent a lot of my life learning to minimize my stories and my struggles and myself, often at the expense of my own creativity, artistry, and success. I've had too many music teachers who deride Taylor Swift and Rihanna for singing about love and sex, hidden under the guise of "their music's just not that good." So I interspersed little bits and pieces of these stories in the music beyond the words—field recordings from Tempe, from Los Angeles, from San Jose, and from Denver make appearances in WEAKNESS as tributes to the loves I found, cultivated, and lost or transformed along the way. The recordings from this album span four partners or almost-partners and countless could-have-been loves, making WEAKNESS a true chronicle of myself—the side of me almost nobody else gets to see.

lyrics

This is how it ends. Not with a bang, but with a whispered confession too long past bedtime. With an acknowledgment that sometimes we can love too much and too little. That sometimes loving me and loving you lie in opposite directions.

This is how it ends. Not with a shout, but with the click of hanging up the phone for the last time. With a promise to be truer to ourselves, to chase the things that make us come alive.

This is how it ends. With tears, yes, but also with clarity of mind and direction. With a promise of building something new together, even if it looks different.

This is how it ends: with a commitment to myself to love more fiercely in even more ways. To take my greatest weakness and make it my strength.
Here it goes....

credits

from WEAKNESS, released September 4, 2020
Eris DeJarnett, everything

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Eris DeJarnett image

Eris DeJarnett Washington

Interdisciplinary narrative artist working with music, text, and movement currently based in the Pacific Northwest. I write a lot of music about relationships between people, both positive and traumatic. ey/they.
erisdejarnett.com ... more

contact / help

Contact Eris DeJarnett

Streaming and
Download help

Report this track or account

If you like Eris DeJarnett, you may also like:

Bandcamp Daily  your guide to the world of Bandcamp

On Bandcamp Radio

Seafood Sam joins the show to discuss his newest album, " Standing On Giant Shoulders".
listen now